endless shouting matches with yourself

ESM 015 - just another MLK story...

Fri, 25 Jan 2008 08:33:24 -0800

been meaning to tell this story for a while, but the MLK holiday brought the perfect opportunity to finally tell it. hang in there with me...it'll all make sense in a minute.

ESM 015 - just another MLK story...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: twenty-four minutes, nine seconds

NEW VOICE MAIL LINE: 206-339-8732

00:00 / dan dare (title music) / happy new year from weird al yankovic
01:15 / friendly fires - paris
06:37 / remembering the "reverend" aspect of rev. dr. king...
09:18 / just another MLK story...
19:36 / el-p - smithereens

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
follow macedonia on twitter...
julien smith

ESM 014 - when narcissism becomes the new god...

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 10:29:57 -0800

so this show was inspired by an incident a friend of mine told me about, which can you read up on in full detail at his blog. common courtesy has been under attack, if you haven't noticed, which causes some people in our society to just go buck wild via the mouth or their actions. in this episode, i attempt to explain a possible reason why...

ESM 014 - when narcissism becomes the new god...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: seventeen minutes, forty-one seconds

NEW VOICE MAIL LINE: 206-339-8732

00:00 / a message from hired gun...
00:29 / track 18 (from the bureaucracy of hope cd compilation)
03:15 / "i see a fire truck..."
04:39 / the rise and reign of narcissism...
14:20 / bloc party - she's hearing voices

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
follow macedonia on twitter...
hired gun's blog entry - why the n word still matters...
the serious consideration blog

ESM 013 - my collect phone call to GOD...

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 12:19:28 -0800

originally, this monologue was going to be the intro to a new episode, but then i thought it worked fine on its own, especially with a song or two as bookends. not all of my conversations with GOD are like this, but sometimes they can be. certainly someone will consider this blasphemous, but in order for GOD to be tangible for everyday people, one would think that GOD should be approachable. the Creator of the heavens and the earth...approachable? why not?

i'm a Christian...one whose mind, body, and spirit is continually under construction. a personal relationship with Jesus Christ is an intimate one, which means at times God's going to get into your business and make you uncomfortable. it's all about getting you out of your comfort zone. so if that's the case, i have to think that an informal convo like the one presented is fair game. one should be able to worship GOD and fear Him due to the fact that He's awesome, but at the same time be able to confide in Him like you would your best friend. i believe that GOD wants that...but that's just me.

along with a cut from Damien Shingleton, there are two selections from Heaven's Radio, a DJ premium from wfmu a few years back. if you're into vintage gospel, i encourage you to download the whole thing - very inspirational and moving.

ESM 013 - my collect phone call to GOD...
transmitting from mount vernon, new york
thirteen minutes, fifty-nine seconds
NEW VOICE MAIL LINE: 206-339-8732

00:00 - reverend cj davis and the temple of resurrection - prayer line
01:18 - my collect phone call to GOD...
09:05 - damien shingleton - you are better than me
12:37 - reverend victor holley - radio broadcast excerpt

other key info:
radio bsots: official homepage and podshow domain
follow macedonia on twitter
sinner's crossroads radio program on wfmu

ESM 012 - burn the village...

Wed, 31 Oct 2007 19:47:51 -0700

so...how have you been? let me just say that if you subscribe to this show and you kept the rss feed in your podcatcher the whole time that i was gone, well then...you're a trooper. seriously. words can't formulate the gratitude i have.

i mentioned the luckiest day of the year, but mistakenly dated it june 7, 2007. that's incorrect, of course. what i meant to say was JULY 7, 2007. beyond that, the saul williams piece that ends the show samples a bad brains tune called "shitfit." outside of saul's brilliant commentary, the bad brains sample is one of the reasons why i love this piece so much. there aren't many spoken word or hip-hop pieces that have sampled bad brains. only other one i can think of is "pass the mic" by beastie boys, which samples the guitar riff from "the big takeover."

ESM 012 - burn the village...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: twenty-four minutes, forty-one seconds

NEW VOICE MAIL LINE: 206-339-8732

00:00 testing...
03:04 john rifle - billboard (pt. one)
04:31 food for animals - elephants [part of free compilation from cockrockdisco.com]
07:23 7-7-07, simone, and that blasted muppet...
12:12 burn the village...
21:11 saul williams - telegram

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
follow macedonia on twitter...
free voice mail and fax service

ESM 011 - american dreams (and personal realities)

Thu, 28 Jun 2007 08:30:20 -0700

the rat bastards at k7.net discontinued my voice mail. screw them. there's gotta be a better way. i suppose i need to go the skype route...

so this is a rant i wrote over four years ago upon the u.s. invasion of iraq. i was in the midst of a six-month period of unemployment when i wrote this. you can find this in print form over at my bsots blog. the last bit of dialogue heard is between Amy Goodman of Democracy Now and writer/journalist Robert Fisk. this just might be the best episode of this show yet, in my opinion...

ESM 011 - american dreams (and personal realities)
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: twenty-three minutes, five seconds

00:00 / what you are about to hear...
01:13 / john oswald (plunderphonics) - mother
03:12 / part one
07:23 / quantum soul - lies, spin, truth
11:41 / part two
14:25 / bright eyes - when the president talks to GOD
16:53 / epilogue
19:29 / mark templeton - i cut along lines {free download available here}

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
follow macedonia on twitter

"never say never. at the end of the day, you just might."

ESM 010 - "this doesn't happen in a town like this..."

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 10:12:56 -0700

in this episode, i discuss the last of the five phrases. i mention a gang in mount vernon that has the nerve to call itself the goonies. after this episode was recorded, a story appeared on a local news program about this gang beating up a 12-year kid because he wouldn't join them. his father tried to protect him and ended up getting beat up himself. what's more, supposedly the parents of the gang members are suing the victim's parents, claiming that the father attacked them and that the kids were only defending themselves. apparently, thug mentalities begin at home... ESM 010 - "this doesn't happen in a town like this..."transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usatotal time: twenty-nine minutes, thirty-one seconds featuring a cameo appearance from Jersey Todd... 00:00 / the phone call, the intro, the teaser01:04 / saul williams - grippo05:34 / phrase number five and the manhunt in march11:23 / blood ruby - remains of the day15:53 / crips and goonies and bloods (oh, my...)24:52 / mark templeton - as the day grows longer other key info:radio bsots: official website and podshow domainfollow macedonia on twitteropen letter to oprah from saul williamssaul williams on myspacemicrocosm music website

ESM 009 - phrases two through four...

Mon, 14 May 2007 06:16:05 -0700

in the immortal words of rakim, "it's been a long time...i shouldn't a' left you..."

back with another show and a different method that hopefully proves more productive in the near and not-so-distant future. shorter shows are key. continuing a subject from the last episode, i offer a retort to white america's following phrases...

"why do you have to bring race into it?"
"go back to africa."

and one that may not be that familiar to most of you...

"i'm catching up to you..."

don't worry, i'll explain it...

ESM 009 - phrases two through four...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: twenty-five minutes, forty-three seconds

00:00 / let's recap...
01:02 / the phone card, the fortune, and that damned puppy...
06:20 / kk - gather round
10:03 / new phone line: 206-350-0892
10:38 / phrases two through four...
21:38 / the national pool - ao1

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
follow macedonia on twitter...
kevin powell editorial on imus, race, and sex in america
bakari kitwana on imus and hip-hop
baratunde's weekly dig column on imus
slavery and the making of america
civil brand

ESM 008 - still here...

Mon, 26 Mar 2007 11:16:17 -0700

by the time you hear this, simone will be seven months old. this show ended up under the editing knife for an extended session. that's not the way i like to do things when it comes to the sideshow. i like to just record it and that's it. but structurally it didn't work in the order that it was recorded, plus it was too damn long. the fat needed to be trimmed. hopefully the voiceovers are somewhat entertaining. on the plus side, there's some great music featured on this episode.

listen closely for simone - she'll be crying in the background. and my lovely wife beth makes a cameo appearance as well...

ESM 008 - still here...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: forty-four minutes, six seconds

00:00 / respect due...
02:33 /in black and white (phrase no. 1)...
06:08 / core rhythm - live from baghdad
11:17 / simone and the valentine's day faceplant...
17:15 / fishbone - faceplant scorpion backpinch
22:05 / blackpeople.podshow.com
25:22 / youngblood brass band - nuclear summer
32:12 / infant gas attacks and the cards my wife has been dealt...
37:41 / dälek*classical homicide (get the MP3 here)

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
jersey todd show - episode no. 79
jason hosting wfmu's listener hour - march 3, 2007
drop squad (the movie)

ESM 007 - mentally detached in the dos double-o-seven...

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 13:39:02 -0800

ESM 007 - mentally detached in the dos double-o-seven...br> transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: thirty-five minutes, thirty-two seconds

00:00 stripper or republican?
01:23 deerfoot - marshall bomb
04:13 new year, new lows...
07:02 what/'s up in my world... 11:28 o.b.e. - sex offender
15:50 admitting you/'re wrong: the office girl addendum
21:28 brookville - crawling in circles
25:36 notes on the perform act...
31:13 jedi mind tricks - razorblade salvation

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
deerfoot/'s official website
o.b.e. on myspace
yorokobi - a party organized by koncepshun
wfmu/'s blog entry on the perform act

ESM 006 - paternal breakdown

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 12:28:33 -0800

new microphone. maybe you can tell, maybe not. i curse more than i should, but the daily grind is getting to me. music works nicely from very intense to low-key and melancholy. not much else other than that. happy new year...

ESM 006 - paternal breakdown
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: forty-three minutes, five seconds

00:00 / JESUS trumps Santa
07:14 / chicks on speed - turn of the century {official website}
10:46 / seriously...this rant felt better than an orgasm...
18:22 / conscious - love 007 feat. tzo and nixx p {conscious on myspace}
23:05 / morpheus, simone, and the night that almost scared me to death...
30:12 / ethereal - this is rome {ethereal on myspace}
35:21 / miss nadia marie and sir jt...
39:24 / cars and trains - broken streetlamp serenade {official website}

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
sir jersey todd

ESM005 - memoirs of a reluctant disciple (revisited)

Fri, 17 Nov 2006 11:28:59 -0800

this episode revisits content originally made for the Radio BSOTS podcast, but it was never
a part of the feed. it was only available via direct download. it was posted to the site late june of this year. this show
foreshadowed the possibility of creating another show, mainly because it was vastly different from the usual BSOTS show. it was
personal, it was more talk than music...honestly, it kinda felt out of place.

and now that this show is here, i figured that it was as good a time as any to revisit this show. it is largely based on some earlier blog entries of mine, which you can find here.

the repeated refrain in mangomad's "so pure" pretty much sums up this show: "i need to wash away my sins / i need to stop before i begin." may as well be the story of my life...

ESM 005 - memoirs of a reluctant disciple (revisited)
transmitting from mount vernon, new york, usa
thirty-six minutes and some change...

00:00 / intro (or "how the shouting matches started...")

02:40 / secret of the saints no. 481

05:37 / john oswald*power {buy it at emusic}

09:07 / one step at a time...

13:23 / idmonster*the storm before the calm {download entire ep for free at notype.com}

16:15 / lead me not into temptation...

22:09 / mangomad*so pure

27:19 / the story of my life (i wanted to tell her...)

31:43 / geeez n' gosh*nobody knows/we call on him {buy it at emusic}

ESM 004 - parenthood: the first 30 days...

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 07:30:57 -0700

when i started recording this show, simone was about three weeks old. she is now seven weeks old. she sleeps through the night sometimes. she is also currently attending day care now that mommy's gone back to work and she's impossibly cute.

there may be overmodulation in spots when i speak, but i swear i'm half deaf from simone crying in my ear. matter of fact, beth just came in the house with her and she was telling moms off, wailing to high heaven. why? CAUSE SHE WAS HUNGRY, THAT'S WHY.

ESM 004 - parenthood: the first 30 days...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: thirty-seven minutes, twenty-eight seconds

00:00 / wait for it...wait for it...
00:44 / the coup - my favorite mutiny
06:25 / life with simone
10:20 / jonny sonic - bourbon sass {jonnysonic.com}
15:44 / anatomy of a 'hood...
22:34 / theory - foolish (feat. wisdom) {theory on myspace}
26:57 / believe in miracles...
33:38 / todd colby - cake
34:32 / macedonia - cake (lo-fi psychotic rendition)
37:09 / milk ducts...

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
wfmu - my favorite radio station
160 versions of todd colby's "cake" (including his original and my version)

ESM 003 - myspace, cell phones, and post-modern novels in dr

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 08:17:30 -0700

my wife and i recently became parents to a newborn baby girl. i am writing this at seven a.m. wifey's currently nursing. this show took place before the birth...

ESM 003 - myspace, cell phones, and post-modern novels in draft form...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: thirty-four minutes, fifty-nine seconds

00:00 / some major changes...
01:15 / assured lenders
03:24 / joshua grosvent - myspace
08:37 / phones (of the micro- and cell variety)
12:33 / david ippolito - talk louder
17:00 / soulwax (2 many djs)
19:45 / drop squad - the drop
23:20 / "be sit a elastic ferroconcrete"
30:11 / tom waits - how's it gonna end

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
adam curry's daily source code
[insert clever name] podcast and blog
impose magazine
drop squad (the movie of the same name)
hired gun on pmn
core rhythm on pmn

ESM 002 - born again brother in severe need of a refresher c

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 16:48:30 -0700

i will freely admit that the office girl rant is probably one of the meanest things to ever fall out of my mouth, but if i didn't get that out of me, i was probably going to kill somebody. truth be told, it went on for several minutes longer. but after a while, even i got sick of me. i found myself saying, wow...i really *am* an asshole.

then there's the day that my driving lessons finally came to an end. looks like my self-professed "asshole in Christ's clothing" claim certainly has a ring of truth. beyond that, i share an original poem of mine as well. i suppose it's the type of show that you'd halfway expect to be recorded during a heatwave...

ESM 002 - born again brother in severe need of a refresher course...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: forty minutes, ten seconds

00:00 / "you got guns?!?"
00:46 / spill
04:53 / 7L and esoteric w/kool keith - daisycutta
11:45 / the office girl
15:13 / techno animal - we can build you (feat. el-p & vast aire) {free download}
20:52 / the more i drive cars, the more i like bicycles...
27:39 / these arms are snakes - big news
32:42 / my wonderful, pregnant wife
35:14 / erick d'orion - what planet is this? {free download}

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
show #22 - the one with the driving rant...
memoirs of a reluctant disciple

ESM 001 - what comes out in the wash...

Thu, 20 Jul 2006 08:26:15 -0700

okay, just let me do a quick check here. old ass computer? check. craptacular microphone? check. bored as hell and angry as f**k? check.

alright, then. let's do this...

ESM 001 - what comes out in the wash...
transmitting from mount vernon, ny, usa
total time: thirty-four minutes, thirty-two seconds

00:00 / "no one as young as you deserves to be so serious..."
01:30 / attack of the power podcast
03:12 / tamar-kali*boot {flamingyoni.com}
06:53 / introductions and how this show came to be
09:11 / podshow plus and the best friendster story
11:37 / conscious*traffic niggahs: the title {pmn}
15:48 / the dial-up chronicles
18:42 / avery fantom*she dangerous (download the album here)
24:26 / bad omen? (commuter train gas attack)
25:59 / the marlon wayans factor
30:08 / universal truth*rock city

other key info:
radio bsots: official website and podshow domain
afropunk website
littlemanpodcast.com
adam curry's daily source code
requiem for a dream